Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Motherhood - an emotional journey

I am a New Mom - a second time around.. like they say - its never enough experience for somethings in life and "Childbirth" is one such thing.

No 2 pregnancies are alike and no 2 babies are similar and you as a MOM are not the same too.

The family and the social fabric that changes also bring in a tonne of challenges. The first time its about discovering parenthood - if that is true then the second time around is about ENJOYING it all over again - knowing what to expect and expecting the joys .

The first one year of the baby is a beautiful time - especially for the mom - because NOTHING else is more important to the baby than you. A feeling that is unparallel.

A feeling that most moms cherish deep within forever - even if the child is 30 and has found their own nest.

My elder one all of 7 has his own agenda now - but I still wish I could go back in time and be THE special one - but like they say time flies - in case of children it flies like a super-sonic jet.....

A couple of years from now - I will be managing a teenager - the thought sends down a shiver down my spine. The social feedback on teens is not helping either - I hear bizzare stories about everything that could go wrong.

I sometimes have begun wondering if we have become epitomes of negativity - we hardly have positive things to share as parents - we are totally ready with handy incidents that went wrong and in that process we have successfully petrified a mom who was otherwise fine...

All this translates to some nightmares sometimes - especially since the mothers are the more emotional lot - also probably because deep within our children are still infants - forever.....

The father let's the child grow and grow up- I guess mothers dont let that happen too easily - naturally so because bonding with the father happens when the child grows - with the mother its the other way round...

My lil fellow is 10  Months old now - has starting standing and walking with some help - is discovering sounds as he blabbers - I AM still THE MOST PRECIOUS person to him - But I can see his intrest in cars , bikes and all other things that his Big Bro likes - they bring a spark to his face and he lights up... Good yes er actually I don't know....

Deep within I wish I could slow this whole process down - I wish I could make the first 2 years to take 20 and the next 18 to take 2 - I would be solving soo many probs with this... I would get soo many more moments of  mommy-time.

Sighhh this is just a wish and as I know this I congnizantly slow down with life, work and other stuff - including dusting and cleaning.

10 years later I might have a designer house - but now I have my babies who still hug me and cuddle me and run to me and cry for me ... and I am enjoying this

This is precious and worth savouring slowly - all else can wait...........

Including weight loss :P :P